Well, today was a win/fail day. The 'win' part is there because I need to be positive about the changes I am making in my life if I expect to be able to continue tryingto improve. I get discouraged about myself so easily. The fail part is there because I'm just SO very tired. I didn't get any of my goals done today. I got laundry washed and dried, but not put away. I didn't get anything else done in the house and therefore in my quest to establish beter personal housekeeping habits.
What did I do all day? Well, this morning I slept in till Rowan woke me up, thanks to my wonderful mother-in-law. I would have slept at least an hour or two longer, but baby called. I took care of grumpy baby, and active toddler, and only barely got one load of laundry washed. I spentthe day covered in spit up. I took care of a mistake our phone company made. I watched one episode of 'Once Upon a Time'. And I 'cooked' three meals. I threw three meals in the fridge to thaw for tomorrow. Mike and I did some shopping. I spent about an hour playing on the computer with Rhia to teach her her letters. And it's that last one and the meals that makes me feel good about the day. She gets so bored and lonely when I'm tired and don't feel like playing. And it's been a sick year for me, so she's been bored a lot. And spending actual one on one time with her that way felt really good.
I have to admit, the only reason I didn't get any housework done today is total exhaustion. I really wore myself out last weekend. I've been strugling all week to actually get anything done. I've been taught by really successful people that 'a tracked number grows' and I really hope that's true. The whole point of this blog is to give me accountability for my goals, and to give me a place to track my progress. And while I know that today was a good parenting day because I spent good quality time with Rhia, took very good care of Rowan and fed all of us (which was easy because of last weekend); I struggle to feel today was a success because I failed to accomplish any of my personal goals. With a newborn, sometimes you have days like today. But I worry that I'm just not 'good' enough and that I'm using my kids as an excuse to not accomplish anything. I'm so tired. Sometimes it's so hard to find the motivation to get started. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I'll keep tracking my progress. If my business friends are right, my progress can only get better as long as I do so. I need sleep. Tomorrow is another day, wish me luck.
P.S. Michael said today that he's had more consecutive meals not made by himself in the last four days than he has in our whole marriage. Go, Me!
I'm happy for you Crystal. Sure, you didn't accomplish the goals you specifically set for yourself, but look at the improvement you've already done. You're cooking 3 meals a day for your family, you're taking care of your kids and being there for them when they need you even when you just want to sleep. Compare that to the past and it's a very, very large step forward, even if it doesn't seem like it to you. :) You're doing great! Just make sure you fold the laundry tomorrow and don't stress about the past. Just keep looking at your goal so you actually hit it. :) Love you! :D
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